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Created: 2023-01-13T06:52
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- Daily
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- Daily-Reflection
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# Thoughts about the Recession in my Job
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I feel frustrated and a big burden on my shoulders and I am not performing at a 100% anymore, which is not good for the company nor me. Starting to doubt my skills, I feel like this project might fail because of me not making enough progress. And I think sometimes I’m stuck on a problem for way too long (and probably so is Ayush), because I’m not able to properly share indepth technical criticisim on a code and flight-log level with another developer (it is difficult to do that with ayush who has never really touched PX4, nor used it to fly a drone). I am in my little office bubble often on my own, which makes it difficult to pop it and thus escape from it. I am starting to doubt my skills. Am I really the right person to do all that, I can learn quickly yes, but so many different in-depth skills are needed that I have never touched. My priority is that the project succeeds and not my personal part in it. What can I do to change this and get back to the track of optimal performance?
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Today, I have proposed to Dannick that maybe hiring an intern which is familiar with px4, embedded programming (especially debugging) and control systems might be a good idea. He could handle the px4-related stuff, while I concentrate on the more high-level ROS2 part (which I’m better at in my opinion). It’s useful to have someone outside for flight tests, especially later on as well, while the neural network integration happens.
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Another idea is that maybe Floris you can start to do more in-depth code reviews?
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## Leaving the Company?
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I have thought a lot about leaving the company, because I currently don’t see any options how to develop myself into the person I want to be, professionally speaking (and probably also privately speaking). I always tell myself that this is going to change a lot when we will finally have external investment, because we are going to have a larger team (15-20 people, is what I think, Floris and Dannick probably say 2 more than we are currently) and my role can shift, because I can offload a lot of the different projects I currently have.
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## Future
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What do you see me doing in the future? Currently I am a nerdy developer, which is never what I wanted. I have and still want to have a task more related to people, interacting with them, see the big picture, talk to investors, customers, etc. Right now I have 0 interaction with people, except the 15 minute standup every day and dannick in the office. I cannot learn skills needed to succeed in a business world.
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# Instructions
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- [ ] Fill out This doc
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- [ ] Double check habit tracker
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- [ ] Organize Brain Drains
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- [ ] Who did I get to know (or know better)?
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# Today
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## Good Things about Today
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## Mistakes
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## Memorable Happenings and Quotes
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## Guidance Questions
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### What would I do differently if I could relive yesterday?
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- Bei der Arbeit wurde ich ab 3 Uhr ineffizient. Ich sitze manchmal nur rum, mache nichts und beklage mich dann bei Dannick, dass ich so viel zu tun hätte. Das ist hypokrit.
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- Am morgen war ich auch nicht sehr produktiv. Ich habe eigentlich nur das LTE-Projekt beendet, obwohl es eigentlich fast beendet gewesen ist. Weiter habe ich mich um die 3D-Drucke gekümmert und die Drohne repariert.
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### What was your highlight and your biggest exception yesterday?
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Dass die Drohne wieder fliegt! Und, dass ich verstanden habe wieso Drift entsteht mit dem Schwerpunkt waren meine Highlights.
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Hingegen, bin ich von mir selbst enttäuscht, wie ineffizient ich arbeite und wie emotional schwierig ich auf die Unordnung zuhause reagiere.
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# Today
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## Main Tasks
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- [ ]
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## Main Improvement
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What do I want to do better? How do I want to be better?
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