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Thoughts about the Recession in my Job
I feel frustrated and a big burden on my shoulders and I am not performing at a 100% anymore, which is not good for the company nor me. Starting to doubt my skills, I feel like this project might fail because of me not making enough progress. And I think sometimes I’m stuck on a problem for way too long (and probably so is Ayush), because I’m not able to properly share indepth technical criticisim on a code and flight-log level with another developer (it is difficult to do that with ayush who has never really touched PX4, nor used it to fly a drone). I am in my little office bubble often on my own, which makes it difficult to pop it and thus escape from it. I am starting to doubt my skills. Am I really the right person to do all that, I can learn quickly yes, but so many different in-depth skills are needed that I have never touched. My priority is that the project succeeds and not my personal part in it. What can I do to change this and get back to the track of optimal performance?
Today, I have proposed to Dannick that maybe hiring an intern which is familiar with px4, embedded programming (especially debugging) and control systems might be a good idea. He could handle the px4-related stuff, while I concentrate on the more high-level ROS2 part (which I’m better at in my opinion). It’s useful to have someone outside for flight tests, especially later on as well, while the neural network integration happens.
Another idea is that maybe Floris you can start to do more in-depth code reviews?
Leaving the Company?
I have thought a lot about leaving the company, because I currently don’t see any options how to develop myself into the person I want to be, professionally speaking (and probably also privately speaking). I always tell myself that this is going to change a lot when we will finally have external investment, because we are going to have a larger team (15-20 people, is what I think, Floris and Dannick probably say 2 more than we are currently) and my role can shift, because I can offload a lot of the different projects I currently have.
Future
What do you see me doing in the future? Currently I am a nerdy developer, which is never what I wanted. I have and still want to have a task more related to people, interacting with them, see the big picture, talk to investors, customers, etc. Right now I have 0 interaction with people, except the 15 minute standup every day and dannick in the office. I cannot learn skills needed to succeed in a business world.
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- Who did I get to know (or know better)?
Today
Good Things about Today
Mistakes
Memorable Happenings and Quotes
Guidance Questions
What would I do differently if I could relive yesterday?
- Bei der Arbeit wurde ich ab 3 Uhr ineffizient. Ich sitze manchmal nur rum, mache nichts und beklage mich dann bei Dannick, dass ich so viel zu tun hätte. Das ist hypokrit.
- Am morgen war ich auch nicht sehr produktiv. Ich habe eigentlich nur das LTE-Projekt beendet, obwohl es eigentlich fast beendet gewesen ist. Weiter habe ich mich um die 3D-Drucke gekümmert und die Drohne repariert.
What was your highlight and your biggest exception yesterday?
Dass die Drohne wieder fliegt! Und, dass ich verstanden habe wieso Drift entsteht mit dem Schwerpunkt waren meine Highlights.
Hingegen, bin ich von mir selbst enttäuscht, wie ineffizient ich arbeite und wie emotional schwierig ich auf die Unordnung zuhause reagiere.
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